A Routine Without Roots
Today, I would like to share my Christian testimony from brokenness to wholeness.
Before I truly understood what it meant to follow Christ, I didn’t take my Christian faith very seriously. Growing up in a Christian family, I attended church with my parents from a young age. I probably said the Sinner’s Prayer while in elementary school, but at that time, church was mostly a place to have fun with friends and earn stickers for memorizing verses.
The Start of a Search
During my middle and high school years, I started to question my faith more seriously. I was learning about evolution and other perspectives on creation, which made me look hard at what I believed. Then, when my aunt, who was not a believer, passed away, I began to feel the weight of life’s fragility and the reality of saying “goodbye forever.”
Discovering God’s Faithfulness in Hard Times
A turning point came when I failed my exams in pre-university. Feeling confused and discouraged, I prayed, and God opened a door for me to study overseas. There, through a Christian fellowship group, I experienced the joy of being part of a supportive community of believers who worshipped and served together. This time transformed my outlook on life. I felt myself growing in faith and even noticed improvements in my temper.
Realizing My Worth in God’s Eyes
After returning home, however, I struggled to settle into a church. Caught up in work, ambitions, and material goals, I drifted for a few years. It wasn’t until I went abroad for a year of study that my faith took another leap. The Christians in my church there were so hungry for God’s Word, and I felt ashamed realizing how easily I had neglected these things. This experience made me reevaluate what it meant to love God with my whole heart. How could I say I loved Him if I wasn’t reading His Word, longing to fellowship, or loving my neighbors?
When I returned, God led me to a church that helped me truly turn my eyes to Jesus. The truths I’d heard all my life—about Jesus’ sacrifice and His understanding of our struggles—became deeply real. During this time, I brought my boyfriend to church, and I’m grateful that we have been able to grow together in Christ as a couple.
Before we got married, I wanted to be free from the baggage of my past so it wouldn’t affect my marriage. I sought prayer from a pastor, sharing the unresolved hurts and childhood issues I had carried with me. She prayed that I would know I am precious and loved by God, and in that moment, I broke down. It was a powerful release as I understood that my worth and identity came from God’s love—not my past, my achievements, or my failures. I was loved on His terms, and that realization made me feel whole.
Verses That Guide Me
Since then, verses like “Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things” (Philippians 4:8) and “We love because he first loved us” (1 John 4:19). have become guiding lights. They help me focus on God’s truth and keep my heart steady, reminding me that He is always with me.
Embracing Ministry and Motherhood
In recent years, I’ve felt led to serve in the areas of women’s mentorship and community outreach. This year, I joined a ministry that provides haircuts to elderly members of the community. It’s a simple act, but it brings dignity, care, and human connection to seniors who may feel forgotten. Each haircut is an opportunity to show them they are valued and loved by God. I hope to brush up my haircutting skills next year so I can focus on engaging them!
Now, as a mother of two, God has given me the chance to experience life anew through their eyes. I pray that I can nurture them in faith, guiding them to know God as their Father and loving Him wholeheartedly. My hope is to raise them as faithful stewards of the love and grace that God has so abundantly given us.
Holding Onto God’s Promises
Looking back, I’m grateful for how God has used each step of my journey—not only to strengthen my own faith but to allow me to serve and encourage others. In moments of despair or doubt, I now hold onto His promise: “Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well” (Matthew 6:33). And I know that “Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in Him; and He shall bring it to pass” (Psalm 37:5).
All glory be to God, who brings us from brokenness to wholeness in His love. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
